/edit 10th june/ WINNERZ. I just unearthed a Xanga Account which i probably created in my dreams cause the user name is fricken stupid: amazonforest. ?!wth?! okay so uh, i can read xanga's which enabled signinlock yay. oh & since the mother is away in HK i washed my own dirty clothes using the washing machine and it has been making strange noises ever since, it's quite disturbing really. i havent slept and i'm going to find a way to get myself to PSB chalet i dont know how. /edit -the washing machine just stopped making noises O: -/

(why did i foolishly start the stupid animal-title thing, it's like challenging me. rawr.)

I am back, with a 17.25 kg luggage, and I am happy.
In Maryland this year, I ate more raw mushrooms than i ever did in the 15 years of my life. I talked to many people and it was great deal of fun. I love the Buddy Team (& their performance was great). We thrashed the lvl2 common room then cleaned up for like hours. There was plenty of free entertainment and I laughed, uh, a lot. I got my building of 318 blocks on Tower Bloxx (super deluxe whatever). I gave up pin-trading, turned to looking at pins + giving them away and started talking to myself.

Performance was great. The judges didnt laugh as much as I hoped. SRZLY THEY DIDNT LAUGH AT LIKE ANYTHING. NOT EMALE, NOT NOSE KNOWS, NOT UH THE MILLIONS OF LAME CC BCC ETC. I WAS SO DEMORALISED I COULD CRYYY. (okay they laughed at the eccentric number 1 thing super loudly that was quite shocking too)

BUT YAYYY, I LOVED THE PERFORMANCE IT WAS THE BEST THING WE EVER DID. I AM SO EXCITED THINKING ABOUT IT IM RANTING LIKE A BABY.

:D :D :D Award ceremony was awesome. We were all nervous + nailbiting + sweaty + needing to pee + laughing at nothing + praying for hours and hours and hours. & i was so nervous i got a stomachache which was 100% psychological and i thought i needed to pee like, 815792 times. Then we got announced and we are second in the world i was so so so so so omg happy and i still am. I honestly didnt even care whether or not acs got like champs or not, no kidding i even half wished they were champs cause i'd like singapore to win and they did. and the wheels of the bus group won too everybody is happy for them cause they are very good. (& i only watched their rehearsal.) i realised that the ac-rg rivalry doesnt mean half an emale to me at all. :D i am not a sore loser cause i am not a loser at all i am a winner i got a silver omggg.

IF ONLY THINGS ENDED THAT WAY. but it didnt. i really wanted to come back and gush about how happy i am with my very last OM experience, but i couldnt. im so fricking upset i am crying in front of a computer screenim going to mope in small font. D:

so we screwed up. we got second in the world and everyone was so so happy but people have to be selfish. so 6 of us didnt get to do what we all wanted to do at the stamp union. we didnt get to trade (or in some cases, give away) anything much. we didnt get to be happy and jump around like crazy people as a team. we didnt get to scream in the dark room and sing hsm songs. we didnt get to do anything but sit on an ugly sofa next to the score board being worried and waiting for nothing actually. then we were late for our curfew (11pm) and had to run back and everything was so terrible so in the end only 4 of us ran back in the worst of moods waiting to be fined for being late. and alot of other shit happened before all 7 of us were back in the dorm, in a mess of moods.

so now all i remember of post award ceremony was that i cried and cried and cried and cried until 1 of my lenses dropped out. I dont remember crying so much since the team talk last year but that was cause we were a horrible screwed up team. but this year we arent!! we were great and we were second and we got a hug from miss may tan each and thats what made everything 10times more disappointing omg i was so upset i think i swore and cursed D: i think some saw us crying and i really hope they dont get the wrong idea that we are sore about being second cause we're not RAWRRR EVERYTHING IS SO MESSED UP.

and thats what we still are. 6+1. i dont know what's going to happen for the next couple of months but i know most of us are horribly upset over what happened. not like crying helps. it serves no damn purpose at all i should stop crying now. everything is just so so disappointing ):

i still love OM very much nothing changes. violet misses the team when we used to be 7.

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