when things go totally wrong, i just really wish there was such a thing as a gigantic eraser to erase away all the bad memories, and hopefully things can go back to how they were before.

but life doesnt work this way i guess. and mistakes have consequences.
and the consequences kinda hurt too much for my own good.

it's srzly awkward and i dont really know what to say now. so i guess it's srzly i say it best when i say nothing at all. this is when im completely at a loss like i dont know what to do or what to say or how to react and how to respond if a reaction/response is even required.

i just seriously hope time can change everything back to normal again.
all that said, im hurt. happy and laughing and all kinds of joy, but hurt nevertheless.

argh i shall have "bad attitude" and go permutate smth now.

Oh ultimate joke from Under Pressure (edited and everything cause i dont remember word for word)
"guys are simple. once you differentiate them and find the one you like, you just integrate them into your life."